And without fail, as blankness fills and newest memories have begun fading, I’m left to dream of not one, not two, but THREE damning ex loves from my past.  All three were displaced and erratic, but the intent and hesitance still there.  Small aspects of their darkness still mocked me, guised in new traces of […]

Less thoughts each day.  Saddening or maddening. At least others have offered new distraction.

I’ve made many mistakes in my life.  Thankfully I feel I’ve been able to atone for them, or at least to offer my apologies.  And in my life, there have been many mistakes I’ve chosen not to make, by taking the higher ground…and I nearly feel regretful for not acting more human in those situations […]

You don’t always achieve your dreams. Most often, actually, you never will.  Live in the moments you find, and never seek further. Pursuing happiness is generally futile.

I just want that girl who will stay up all night watching horror with me.

Now I’m given the decision to undergo real surgery to fix a topical issue, and healing will be insanely miserable and heinous, and I will be bedridden for two weeks suffering to heal.  It isn’t necessary for life, but removes complications and inconveniences.  What to do, what to do.