And part of me is still burning. Every time such words were spoken, they were simply bullshit. “why didn’t you call me?” “why didn’t you chase me?” “you didn’t try to fix it, so I knew you didn’t care.” Yaknowwhat?? FUCK you. And verily, fuck all of you that have ever said such things to […]

Perhaps I’m perpetually broken. Perhaps I’m always the catalyst and the lesson. Bending my knees to serve my purpose has always been most difficult, but at times, we must simply do as we are told. And perhaps my indignation is my torment… Or is it my salvation?

And briefly this morning, I felt vilification. Briefly I felt desire to bump into you, and thus to look through you. Something finally broke, and I’d almost BEG one word spoken, just to humiliate you. For so long I’ve kept believing it is me, but it isn’t. It wasn’t. I really want to go to […]

me? i was in the shower. the shehag called once, i ignored it being in the shower. called again a couple minutes later, so i assumed it was important. she had that hushed, quiet voice she used to do when she was scared or upset, so i knew something was wrong. i was out of […]

And she put super glue in each of my palms and told me to make a circle with my arms, touching my palms together tightly. She the crawled into my circled arms, gently, and said, “now you can hold love in your arms forever.” She then smiled brightly at me, that smile that makes me […]

“silence isn’t golden when you’re holding it inside” I have too much to say. I struggle each day to contain it, and I fear it is eating my sanity. Problem is…I don’t even think the time or my words are deserving. Such a delicate precipice upon which I’m teetering. My eyes grow darker each day […]

And for my convictions, I was convicted. A liar, a cheater, and a fraud, I was called. None of the convictions were true, except my conviction to maintain love and friendship. There was no right or wrong in the folly that followed, but merely falsehoods flung attacking my freedoms. The damages caused were true emotions, […]

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Into madness I’d follow you.