i believe i can see the future…because i repeat the same routine i think i used to have a purpose…and then again that might have been a dream i think i used to have a voice…now i never make a sound i just do what i’ve been told…i really dont want them to come around…oh […]

i had a dream that my parents had a red cat. it was normal in every way, even in markings, but bright red. it had white splotches on it’s belly and i think even had white mittens. i want one. also had a lot more going on but it’s all hazy, i remember some “person” […]

I’ve been thinking about what you said It’s been going around in my head I’ve been thinking about what you were It’s a messy messed up blur and when the con was over one thing I learned: I think you’d be better off if you were dead think your check might last a year? aint […]

how could you say that i never needed you….when you took everything……you took everything from me…..

ho hum.

you know, sometimes i wish i actually believed in coincidence… it would make things a lot different and bearable i think. but no…i have to know different and i have to see past things into the way they truly are. i see why things aren’t as pretty as we want them to be.

so my dream last night was incredible…i guess it played on teh bar scene from last night. same setup, i was in some dive bar and this fight broke out or something, it got really nasty like, broken bottles and such…then it turns out it’s like an acting troop or something, like, they do all […]

i finally got to hang out with my work friends last night without the interference of two people that disgust me. i miss seeing jeff and jen especially. they’re good people. i dont get to hang out with michael much either because of all that shit so it was good to meet up outside of […]

at the prompting of something else, i remembered mydream last night, i dreamt that axl rose was dying and on an ambulance or something and i was totally sad.

and now email is down at work….fuckers……