ok…don’t remember all the dream…i remember talking to Shallow for a brief time, i remember her saying something like “i could tell you a 1000 things i like about…” something, i don’t remember. then the reverse, 1000 things i DON’T like about….whatever. the part that stands out, i was in some type of auditorium and […]

i’ve made it past the first day of march, usually such a bad day…but it was uneventful for the most part. of course tragedy has HAPPENED in march for me…i was hit in the head with the beam at toys r us in march…cut of my fingertip in march…plenty of time for something to happen. […]

so, in dreams…i still hear it talking to me…the words from the Shallow lips…”i miss the attention you gave me…i miss the way you look so deeply at me….no one else does it and i won’t be able to replace it” fuck myself.

nothing much to even say. it sickens me to hold so much disgust for something, it makes me feel like one of “them.” sometimes i wish they would just take me back, i don’t need to be here anymore, i don’t know why they want me to go through all these things…if it’s for enjoyment […]

i’m still waiting. nothing so far, just a visual of the Shallow Beast i don’t want to see. it’s a waste of my time to even have a reaction about it. both of them just sicken me anymore. buy 10 mg cialis cheap viagra substitute

so today is my recurring day of reckoning, of birth and death, happiness and pain…what evil mockery is in store? what joyous events will occurr? give me your best fucking shot.

“I’m The Only One” (feat. Shaggy 2 Dope) [Monoxide Child] I should have knew she was a freak by the way she walked And when I talked to her it was like she never got caught To this day, she swear to God it wasn’t shit Unless she straight up just tripped and fell up […]

stay the fuck out of my head, i’m so sick of fucking thinking about you.

Thick hips…thick legs…saggy…fat, flat ass…love handles…and horrible actions like this…this attitude, this personality…these misgivings…what the fuck are you? Can I even call you human anymore? Can I even say that you are what I saw? Is your true nature being overshadowed by a darker spirit that you’re unaware exists? So many things that I wouldn’t […]

gwar was fucking awesome thursday night, i had such a blast. i’ll have pics soon, though the shirt i wore had some nylon in it or something so it didn’t stain the way i wanted, it just turned a pinkish hue. oh well, i still have my memories. my friends had a great time, it’s […]