so there you have it…my life has gone to utter shit in a month. everything was great for a while…my life was happy, i had wonderful people to share my time with…and it all comes crashing down during my Aquarian cycle. the person i loved turned her back on me and denies ever feeling anything, […]

i thought i was going to make it through the day without having something thrown in my face, but no, Shallow went ahead and took care of it and made sure that i knew that regardless of what i change about myself, she isn’t going to “feel any differently” about it. nice of you to […]

then i will be exactly what everyone fucking wants me to be…normal. close your eyes to what you thought i was, i’m no longer the same.

things haven’t been as prevalent in my mind lately, but they still won’t go away. i watch the images bounce in my head, i think of the memories we shared over such a short time…i think of how things went so astray. Shallow Crush questioned how and why i could gain such favor for her […]

i saw Constantine this weekend..damn fine movie…the previews seemed a bit better than the flick, but it was still pretty kickass. it seemed gritty and dark, sorta comic book-ish, almost in like a Max Payne sort of way. the action scenes were nice, the religious tones were well done and followed the history of the […]

so i went out with Mystery for a while on friday, she’s having the same problems as always, things suck and her bf sucks…but she’s never going to do anything about it. i can’t see why people enjoy living in such torment. i have watched so many of them do it lately… i went to […]

i dreamt of the shallow crush again. after last night and after seeing the fiery card, i don’t know what to really think.

had someone knocking on my door this morning…some lady serves me papers saying that Discover card wants to sue me now. lovely. fucking lovely. i just wonder how much more my heart needs to break and hurt before i get to feel better again.

“Better the devil you know than the one you don’t.”

In a Darkened Room –Skid Row In a darkened room Beyond the reach of God’s faith Lies the wounded, the shattered remains of love betrayed And the innocense of a child is bought and sold In the name of the damned The rage of the angels left silent and cold Forgive me please for I […]