The Shine — Sweet sweet bliss…things have now taken such a rapid turn for the better…she has noticed me. I’m writing this for me and you, so I guess there is no reason to not refer to you as “you” instead of “she.” There will be no vague references here, this can be direct truth…no […]

my poor lost soul, where are you….everytime i think i’ve found you, it turns out you just aren’t who i thought you were…i guess you’ll find your way back to me soon enough. don’t close your eyes and disbelieve what is truly in front of you.

9:35 pm abandon all ye hope… so, it seems i’ve put a bit more faith into my feelings and thoughts than i should have ever allowed, my life and my presence is not as important and fixated in the eyes of another…..i feel way too much and think way too much……my feelings aren’t to be […]

i’ve been a drama queen, i’m pompous, i’m arrogant, i’m self-righteous, i’m narcissistic, i’m shallow, i’m deprived, i’m egotistical, i’m delusional, i’m divergent, i’m curious, i’m bland, i’m contradictory, i’m selfish, i’m indignant, i’m overbearing, i’m nervous, i’m insecure, i’m unique, i’m aquarius. what does it feel like to be in love? i thought i […]

Saturday, July 13th, 2002 4:00 pm and why? why do i have this sentiment…why do i feel so depressed…i’ve been losing friends left and right, i’ve been losing touch with feeling, i’ve allowed myself to hurt, i’ve allowed myself to be upset….i’ve done so well the past few months, and now i’m having that resurgence […]

4:47 am life changing? so, an event took place today…my store was robbed at gun point. luckily no one was hurt in any way, although probably emotionally scarred. i fortunately was not in direct contact with the situation, but i caught the aftermath. it kind of makes ya think, ya know? i walked in to […]

Saturday, June 22nd, 2002 1:37 pm pure fuckery and enjoyment…the erroneous mix …such an amazing amount of fuckery yesterday. i receive a hot check from she-hag and was asked to wait another 2 weeks to cash it, so i wait the period and try to cash it on the date requested….and lo and behold, the […]

Monday, June 17th, 2002 6:29 pm fuck you. So here I sit, a pale comparison to all the beautiful things that now define your existence. All the things you so adamantly desired while with me are now the things that feverishly divide yourself from me. Is it status? Is it wealth? That isn’t for me […]

this is from august of 2002, and i should have done what i said i would. —– 6:40 pm simplicity and how complex it truly isn’t….. so it ends here. i’m no longer speaking of bullshit that is meaningless, i’m no longer wasting my time pouring out all the drops of incredulity from my brain, […]

Somewhere Out There- –our lady peace– Last time I talked to you, you were lonely and out of place. You were looking down on me, lost out in space. Laid underneath the stars, strung out and feeling brave. Watch the red orange glow, watch them float away. Down here in the atmosphere, garbage and city […]