so, in no particular order, here are my top ten “bad qualities” that i’ve lately been told are my downfall. 1. i have a nosering. 2. i dress funny. 3. i don’t have broad shoulders. 4. when i’m drunk i act “clingy.” 5. when i’m drunk i act “girly” but i’m not sure what that […]

i don’t have the energy to write about what’s on my mind right now…maybe later or maybe tomorrow. all of it is finally coming together though, and we’ll just have to see where it leads. i have a few more things to document and i have some things to make comparison to, and after that […]

this is the safest place to post most of my thoughts and observations about things because i can at least have them on paper in front of me so they don’t seem so jaded coming from my own lips. so many things about how i act and react in situations, and so many times i […]

sometimes even i am left with little to say…unrequited love…so be it. i wanted to think you would be special, and i know you wanted to be…but apparently you’ll be just like all the others. you won’t be special. you won’t be “the one” to behave differently. you won’t be “the one” who can step […]

im sure i’ve only made a mistake, i always do.

Guns N’ Roses Don’t Cry by Stradlin’/Rose If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They’re back in demand I was the one who’s washing Blood off your hands Don’t you cry tonight I still love you baby […]

I Loved You Once by: Alexander Pushkin (1799 – 1837) I loved you once, nor can this heart be quiet; For it would seem that love still lingers there; But do not you be further troubled by it; I would in no wise hurt you, oh, my dear. I loved you without hope, a mute […]

When We Two Parted by: Lord Byron (1788 – 1824) When we two parted In silence and tears, Half broken-hearted To sever the years, Pale grew thy cheek and cold, Colder, thy kiss; Truly that hour foretold Sorrow to this. The dew of the morning Sunk, chill on my brow, It felt like the warning […]

so many fucking things that were said, maybe i didn’t want to face them at the time, but now the more i think on them, i don’t want to miss them either… everytime i see a scary movie advertise i think of you, and how i want to watch them with YOU and no one […]

Marilyn Manson The Last Day On Earth by Unknown Yesterday was a million years ago In all my past lives I played an asshole Now I found you, it’s almost too late And this earth seems obliviating We are trembling in our crutches High and dead our skin is glass I’m so empty here without […]