this hurts so much both ways i wish i really knew what the answer was…maybe if i knew that it bothers you as much as it does me i would feel better about it, but i doubt that would matter…i don’t think i can do it, i can already see myself breaking down… i talked […]

so many things i want to tell you so many things i want to show so many things i cant compare to so many things that will never grow i tried to make things right i tried to make things real i tried to give you light i tried to make you feel i wanted […]

i have my moment of doubt and pain… i question if i made the right decision, i question if i should have done and said the things i did…it hurts me so fucking much to watch you so far away… i look at my IM list and see your name just taunting me…all i have […]

so here’s a good idea…how about you make it a point to be somewhere that i’ll run into you, make it a point to be somewhere talking to someone when you know it’s just going to hurt me, make it a point to keep throwing it in my face. why am i going to continue […]

If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine… Knowing that I could never find that […]

i do not want this…… –nin ——- i’m losing ground you know how this world can beat you down and i’m made of clay i fear i’m the only one who thinks this way i’m always falling down the same hill bamboo puncturing this skin and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a […]

i’m looking forward to joining you, finally -nin ——————————————————————————– as black as the night can get everything is safer now there’s always a way to forget once you learn to find a way how in the blur of serenity where did everything get lost? the flowers of naivete buried in a layer of frost the […]

i hate fighting tears…i’m sitting here just wanting to cry and scream…i want things to be ok, i want to feel fine…i wish it wasn’t like this… it hurts to know that she’s upset, it hurts to know that she feels the same way…i wish we could both smile the way we used to….. …instead […]

you’re scared when i look into your eyes because you are going to miss it. you’re afraid when i touch your hands because you know you won’t feel it again. you cringe when i hug you because you won’t feel our hearts pressed together anymore. you turn your head from me understanding that our lips […]

most things never turn out the way we want them to, i’m sure we should be used to it by now, but i can’t say that it hurts any less when they don’t. some things feel beautiful and wholesome, and we want to keep them close, and sometimes we shouldn’t. some people make us ecstatic […]