well i had another interesting dream…i’m trying to keep track of these things in the hopes that i’ll have an easier time remembering in the future. i remember distinctly being in some sort of impending disaster, like we were in a car and something was going to explode or blow up or melt or something. […]

metal originally by gary numan ——————————————————————————– we’re in the building where they make us grow and i’m frightened by the liquid engineers like you my mallory heart is sure to fail i could crawl around the floor just like i’m real like you the sound of metal i want to be you i should learn […]

ok, i don’t remember all the details on this one, i just remember being part of some “group” and it was almost like we were Voltron…i remember 2 members climbing into this giant machine as i was watching, and i remember afterwards it was like a toy, i was flipping switches and such and it […]

the tears of a child afraid, confused, and unaware of why they are being punished or otherwise reprimanded can be more painful to the soul than most of the foulest events in love and heartbreak. i saw the tears well up as she looked at me for help, she did not understand and only knew […]

had more strange dreams last night…i hardly remember much of it, i know i should write it after i have it so i don’t lose it so quickly. i do remember seeing crystal in it, she was frantically looking through some large house for something, i was following with her room to room and she […]

i am drunk and i think i am falling for someone again that i should never fall for….thats my life…i always wnnt the ones that are already taken……

so where do i stand now? ok, i’m drunk, finally, and sitting at teh keyboard, so truth can flow again…. i think i’m a bit uneasy with tyring to pursue relationships, i can tell that i’m hesitant about allowing myself to have deep true feelings for peopel, but i guess that’s just a defense mechanism. […]