could someone please explain something to me…anyone feel free to comment…if, while in a relationship, one of the parties goes out of town for a few days and right before said party goes out of town a significant fight or disagreement happens. now, the party that goes out of town then makes several comments about calling party #2 the next day (before leaving) and assures that party #1 will make that call. party #2 then leaves abruptly while ignoring most all comments of party #2, and party#1 gives no chase to stop party#2 from leaving while angry and upset. as party#2 is driving home, party#1 calls and apologizes more and they talk for a span of time, and again explains that a phone call will be made and that they want to see party#2 upon their return. now, the next day comes and goes with no phone call from party#1, as does day 2, and then day 3 with no contact. finally party#2 breaks down and calls party#1 about 4 hours after they were due back, and party#1 gives the excuse “oh i thought we were done and i thought you broke up with me so i didn’t bother calling. i figured you’d have taken the things you left here and that was all.” of course, those things were still there, and yet still no phone call. now…give me opinions please…anything further from the conversation was simply made in excuse, i think the major point stopped with that statement. my viewpoint of this situation would be that obviously party#1 was willing to give up and not even make an attempt to chase party#2 for any reason. there was no attempt to “win them back” or act like the relationship was even of any importance to retain or repair…and by lack of action like this it would appear that party#1 REALLY just doesn’t give a shit about party#2 and could have cared less if they were gone or not. input please….

I talk about people all the time. Actually, I only talk about the ones that I care about I guess. I don’t find myself talking about strangers, only about people I know. How strange…I hadn’t realized that til I just typed it.

this was an excerpt from a convo i was having with someone at work while we were talking about a stupid person we both know and the stupid decisions being made. i realized that it’s harsh to talk badly about others, and then realized the above…i can’t say i make judgements about people i don’t know, other than the casual offside comment about looks or clothes or something.

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i think i’m losing direction and momentum again. i wonder how much i really care about other people, or moreso, my ability to care about others…i’ve grown so apathetic and cold recently and it bothers me to think i might not shed my newfound happiness in being alone. others just cause so many problems it seems, and people are always so fucking fickle that it sickens me. who knows. i tried to force myself or trick myself to think differently about a girl at work and the plan failed. again, i had a girl offering a simple physical relationship with no strings attached and i couldn’t go through with it. i suppose i should be commended for upholding the moral fiber i hold so dearly, but at the same time, would not any other man have gladly taken advantage of the situation? who knows, perhaps deep inside i just knew it wasn’t right and that i would have hated myself for going through with it. sometimes we yearn so ecstatically for things that are never going to live up to our expectations, perhaps all those things are, as i’ve always said, best left to merely dream about. i suppose only time will tell; i have a couple more “victims” to pursue for love interest, and after that i’m back to the beginning with no more options. of course there are a lot of people i work with, so the opportunites will probably arise again, and for now, one of them really intrigues me because of the level of shyness and apprehensiveness i get when i think of her and get near her…i haven’t been that giddy in a LONG time…and i don’t even know thing one about this girl. we shall see…and either way, i’m not looking for another person to make me happy, i’m doing fine being alone. other news…got a few more piercings…lost a few more piercings to migration…finished covering up a bad tattoo…so now i have no shame in showing off ALL of them. i’m blanking…time to watch tv and movies… btw, does anyone have a paid user account that is willing to “syndicate” a feed for me? i’m wanting to change over to a blogspot journal as well, or at least use dual journals and incorporate my blogspot one by having it shown as a “feed.” if anyone can help, please let me know…

i saw my lil jen saturday night…she’s turning into a sexy little beast. she seems shorter than i remember her, i can’t believe it could be that long that i haven’t seen her and can’t remember her height…guess it has been quite some time. it was great seeing her…i really miss our long phone convos we always had 🙁 that’s what happens when girls run off to college and get boyfriends…