ok, my new site is up and barely running, i haven’t had time to edit the new page layout or anything, so i just have basic links to those things that are important to see…. www.flitzanu.com

Well I’m at the bar…in her section…she looks wonderful again…will
I flirt or will I fail?

something is still fundamentally wrong…..

i had another dream about her, about D, and this one was a bit more misunderstood.  i’m not totally sure how i should see it, but all i remember is we were in some type of hotel type building or something, and we were trying to find a way to an event we were going to.  the part i remember was walking down a hallway and she put her hands against my waist, so i grabbed them and wrapped them around my chest in a backwards hug.  i felt an energetic sensation, everything felt great, and as both of us were beaming smiles i spun her around to kiss her, and looked her in the eye and put my hands on her cheeks and leaned in and she had this apprehension in her eyes…so i said “kiss me” and she said no, no what are you doing?  i can’t do this…and walked away and disappeared…i spent the majority of the dream after that chasing her around trying to explain and apologize or something…

Goin to lunch at Fridays…its fucking hot out STILL…when will this hellish weather end…blahhhh….I’m gaining frustration for people, there is so much strife and disillusion in humans it isn’t funny. They put such faith in thinking they can change some asshole into something defineably different…people don’t change with influence of others, they will only change under their own volition.

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