Life is rather fragile…you never know what could happen in an instant…my older sister flipped her car and hit a tree swerving to miss a dog in the road…sure…don’t dodge an animal, but its instinct. Anyway…broke her femur in two, shattered the kneecap, and has multiple breaks in the lower leg…all in one leg…and luckily no other injuries. Bl

so i had a dream that i grabbed her and kissed her…i know in my mind already that it’s a taboo thing that i shouldn’t do, but in the dream everything felt so right, like it was just waiting to happen…and that both of us had waited for it for so long…jeezus i hate feeling so much in love within a dream…like everything is SOOOO “meant to be” it is scary…i guess i hate it because for this situation i can’t see it happening in real life, and also that those things always turn into a letdown if they really happen…our dreams are always so much more powerful than our waking lives. either way, i think i’m falling in too deep into something and i don’t need to allow myself to be falling into this…sometimes i wish i could close my eyes to true beauty and inner light….

so i heard from a reliable source that ikon has now shut its doors…say it ain’t so!! i only got to enjoy it like 3 times…so sad, so sad… i had forgotten how voyeuristically beautiful goth chicks really are…all black-clad…pale makeup…grrrrrrr……… …to the good ole days… *clinky clinky…drinky drinky*

AQUARIUS This week’s scenario is highlighted by self-discovery, independence, and autonomy which can become key issues in your love or domestic relationships. You are also less likely to be dependent upon others for emotional support and nurturing, or unusual or unexpected developments occur now which necessitates that you become more self-reliant in this regard. The care, nourishment, protection, and concern you give to family members and loved ones may also come across as erratic, inconsistent, and highly impersonal at this time. Sudden shifts or deviations in your behavior and attitudes, such as one minute being loving and the next minute demonstrating detachment or disinterest, will be the cause of conflict and tensions in your family and love affairs. Disruption of the traditional routines and activities in your home environment can also occur at this time. Unavoidable changes, such as sudden reversals in your role as provider and caretaker, an unplanned pregnancy, new responsibilities for children or a parent which limits your personal freedom, or unusual behavior on the part of loved ones are possibilities during this period.

i watched eddie izzard last night…i got to thinking…i would make a pretty sexy transvestite. an executive transvestite. an action transvestite.

ichi the killer was almost more twisted the second time i watched it. i’m not sure if i’ve seen an american movie to compare to the depravity of it.

i don’t like you, i don’t like you, don’t like the way you hate…

Are you feeling radical? Rebellious? Unfit for ‘normal’ humans? No way. But try to resist the urge to tell the horrified diners at the next table to ‘just loosen up.’ thanks yahoo horoscope…thanks for continuing to make me think i’m not human by noting i’d actually talk about people as “humans” and denoting i’m not one.

Jacobs Ladder is the ladderr leading to heaven as seen by Jacob in his dream, alternatively it is a device for generating a series of high voltage plasma arcs that ascend twin diverging conductors before dissipating into atmosphere. Jacobs Ladder

I REALLY FUCKING HATE WHEN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT A “JACOB’S LADDER” !!!! people…let me help you out….it is a fucking FRENOM ladder, it has NOTHING to do with a “JACOB’S LADDER” at ALL. maybe if someone’s name was Jacob, it could be a jacob’s ladder. but it is NOT called jacob’s ladder. and hell, to get technical, frenom is shortened as it is, it is frenulum, or fraenulum for the oldschool language folk. so please, everyone out there…the next time someone says “jacob’s ladder” in reference to someone having their cock pierced…tell them to fuck off, slap them, and write FRENOM LADDER on their fucking face with a black permanent marker. –end rant