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Jul
				24
				2013
			old habits
just wanted to give birthday wishes to the dear old Shehag. so far away still, and hopefully happy, enjoy your birthday.
Jun
				17
				2013
			always waking up.
had a dream last night about flirting. i feel like i knew who this girl was, but i didn’t remember after i woke up. i dremt of being shy…and flirting…and her flirting back. innocence is so beautiful, and one thing i sorely miss.
Jun
				03
				2013
			musings of an emo bitch
some days, just walking through the doors, my heart still drops.
so many memories still scratching at my mind, keeping things fresh and not giving me peace. it’s painful to remember you exist. i want to hate myself for ever thinking of you.
Mar
				25
				2013
			oh shehag.
i hope you are well. you’ve been visiting my dreams for several nights now. i wish i knew how to help you, old friend.
Feb
				12
				2013
			Shy face.
It had been a long time since i last dreamt of you. I don’t think you were able to see me though. You smiled, and at least in my mind you seemed happy.
Dec
				11
				2012
			Sleeping awake.
Sleeping all night may not be the most enjoyable thing for everyone, and wasn’t for me. My entire night of dreaming was spent frantically trying to get someone to wake me up. Each person encountered in my dream scenario i begged to wake me. It never worked. I spoke, i conversed, i interacted…but nothing. My words were splotchy and i merely sounded drunk. I couldn’t make the point i wanted, and seemed only to be coddled and thought to be ill. I was hugged, i even forced myself to resonate and shake faster trying to get their attention that i didn’t belong, but nothing was working.
I wouldn’t wish any of this on anyone. There is nothing more frustrating and horrifying than knowing of your conscious state and awareness, and knowing that you’re in the WRONG place.
Nov
				28
				2012
			Some days…
Some days my heart still aches. I suppose I’ve only learned to hide it better.
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