hmm…first posts are always tough eh?

i want to go see Devil’s Rejects.

Someone you find attractive may ruffle your feathers a bit today. Try reversing the situation and giving them the benefit of the doubt. It’s likely they didn’t mean to offend. WTF??

“i believe i can see the future, cuz i repeat the same routine” and how true it is. i DO repeat the same routine, and thusly i know what the outcome will be…same as it always is. i’ve possibly learned ONE thing from this though, not to be fucking honest. seemingly girls don’t like honesty…it’s frightening and they aren’t used to honest, nice guys…and so anything i say that is truthful will just come out as being a double meaning for “i really want to fuck you, regardless of what i’m saying.” so…that part is done. no more explanations, no more trying to be truthful about intentions. if it brings the same reaction, i’m just not going to waste my fucking breath on it anymore. so…there you go. yahoo horoscope…you told me yesterday i’d arrive at a new epiphany, and you were right. i did.

ok this is getting fucking ridiculous, yahoo. — Overview: You’re due for a major epiphany, and it won’t come to you under ordinary circumstances. A most unusual situation will bring it to you. Pay attention to that little voice in the back of your mind. It’s never let you down.

FUX2U!!!!

Ich bin ein Auslander

Something you’ve been keeping to yourself for a very long time is about to emerge, but not consciously. Pay attention to your dreams. There’s a message in them that you really need to hear. When times are tough, or at least tricky, the universe often sends hints our way, via coincidental circumstances, vivid or recurring dreams or the appearance or reappearance of someone whose presence makes us feel a certain way. It’s up to you now to figure out what those coincidences and dreams are all about. You know you can do it. If anyone is an expert at unraveling such things for others, it’s you. Do it for yourself now. — uh……wtf?? little too personal……

i feel involuntarily apathetic today…i feel i want to say the first thing that comes to mind with everyone, be it good or bad…i want to say a lot of things i know i shouldn’t…and some of them i hope i would….and will…. i want a confrontation, i want you to question me, i want you to try speaking…so i can use the words you’ll never understand… your skin is so thin, and i can still see inside you, your eyes will never protect you from me, i’ll always be able to look past…i’ll see those things that you want to hide so badly, that you hide behind batting eyelashes and arched eyebrows…show your happiness and your attitude to the world, i’ll still see the things you hide…what is it that has hurt you people so badly…why do you hide from yourself and all your potential…all of you have such great potential and ability….and you conceal it… i want to lash out, i want to hurt someone, i want to be painful with truth….i showed one of them today, let me show more. face what you already know, look for my sympathy as i give you reality…..

BETWEEN THE LIQUOR, THE BED AND THE NOISE IN MY HEAD BETWEEN YOUR MIND AND MY CRIME AND ME IN THE GRIME BETWEEN THE GUN, THE LEAD AND THE LIES THAT I SAID THROUGH YOUR SWEET BREATH COMES THE DAWN OF MY DEATH TOUCH ME- HATE ME GIVE YOURSELF TO ME AND BREAK ME CUT THESE EYES AND I WILL SEE KISS THESE LYING LIPS FOR ME STROKE THIS SKIN AND WILL KNEEL BRUTALIZE ME I WILL HEAL BETWEEN THE BULLET AND MY LIP AND THE LIES YOU LET SLIP BETWEEN THE DIRT OF THIS SOUL AND YOUR HEART THAT’S A HOLE BETWEEN THE PLACE WHERE YOU HIT AND THIS FACE WHERE YOU SPIT THROUGH YOUR SWEET BREATH COMES THE DAWN OF MY DEATH