To ———. I heed not that my earthly lot Hath —— little of Earth in it — That years of love have been forgot In the hatred of a minute : — I mourn not that the desolate Are happier, sweet, than I, But that you sorrow for my fate Who am a passer by. E. A. P.

willy wonka > all of you

who the fuck knows anymore. fickle is as fickle does. sometimes i think i can see right through myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself

happy bday briana….. 6:18pm on 7/17/03

Aquarians basically possess strong and attractive personalities. They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things, they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades them that they have been mistaken. They have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument without shilly-shallying as to which side to take. Consequently they are unprejudiced and tolerant of other points of view. This is because they can see the validity of the argument, even if they do not accept it themselves. They obey the Quaker exhortation to “Be open to truth, from whatever source it comes,” and are prepared to learn from everyone. Both types are humane, frank, serious minded, genial, refined, sometimes ethereal, and idealistic, though this last quality is tempered with a sensible practicality. They are quick, active and persevering without being self-assertive, and express themselves with reason, moderation and sometimes, a dry humor. They are nearly always intelligent, concise, clear and logical. Many are strongly imaginative and psychically intuitive, so that the Age of Aquarius, which is about to begin, is much anticipated by psychic circles as an age in which mankind will experience a great spiritual awakening. The Aquarian philosophical and spiritual bent may be dangerous in that it can drive the subjects into an ivory-tower existence where they meditate on abstractions that bear little relevance to life. On the other hand it can help the many who have scientific leanings to combine these with the Aquarian yearning for the universal recognition of the brotherhood of man, and to embark on scientific research to fulfill their philanthropic ideals of benefiting mankind. When some cause or work of this nature inspires them, they are capable of such devotion to it that they may drive themselves to the point of exhaustion and even risk injuring their health. Both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners. They appreciate opportunities for meditation or, if they are religious, of retreats. Even in company they are fiercely independent, refusing to follow the crowd. They dislike interference by others, however helpfully intended, and will accept it only on their own terms. Normally they have good taste in drama, music and art, and are also gifted in the arts, especially drama. In spite of the often intensely magnetic, forthcoming and open personality of the more extrovert kind of Aquarian, and of their desire to help humanity, neither type makes friends easily. They sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to them. They do not give themselves easily – perhaps their judgment of human nature is too good for that – and are sometimes accounted cold. But once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life. However, they are sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable. And if they are deceived their anger is terrible. If disillusioned, they do not forgive. Aquarians work best in group projects, provided that they are recognized as having a leading part in them. They have a feeling of unity with nature and a desire for knowledge and truth that makes them admirable scientists, especially astronomers and natural historians. They may excel in photography, radiography, electronics – anything connected with the electrical and radio industries – aviation and everything technical. On the arts and humanities side their progressive tendencies can be expressed in writing, especially poetry, and broadcasting, or as welfare workers and teachers. Some have gifts as entertainers and make good character actors (having an ability to mimic) and musicians. The more psychic among them possess healing gifts, especially in curing the mentally sick. Among the faults to which they are liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in their opinions. Aquarians can be a threat to all they survey or a great boon for humanity in general. Circumstances – for example, continuous opposition to a cause they hold dear – may cause the atrophy of the openness of mind that is one of the Aquarian’s most attractive traits. They may express a lack of integrity in broken promises, secretiveness or cunning. Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of the Aquarian. This can also reveal itself in a sustained hatred for enemies that is capable of enlarging itself into a misanthropy toward the whole of mankind.

When you’re happy, it’s hard for anyone in the vicinity to be unhappy. You have an odd, irreverent, lightning-fast sense of humor that comes out at the darnedest times. When it does — after the five-second delay most folks need to catch up — you reduce your audience to tears. The best part is that it’s usually only your casual observations about the human condition that bring it on. You’ll be onstage now, no matter where you are. Prepare to make a whole new posse of fans.

so i met a great girl last night… great attitude, great personality, great sense of humor, great smile, great face, great body….

Feel so bad and broken day in and day out, confused and annoyed it’s all I feel I think about, the voices all around you starting to make you blind, 12 o’clock tick toc come on baby now it’s brain washing time, morning will come and youll still be trapped here in you cage, I’ll be gone, I’ll be gone far away, the King is dead long live the fucking King, there used to be a time when I’d do almost any little thing for you, I see you now and my stomach’s balled up in a knot, I feel the cold knife blade of disgust in my gut like a shot- morning will come and youll still be trapped here in you cage, I’ll be gone, I’ll be gone far away, you can fuck me and i’ll hate you, you can hate me and i’ll fuck you, isn’t that what this is all about- the future’s not all it’s cracked up to be, bloated in the daylight dead eyes seldom see your empire’s in flames and your kingom’s out of power the emperor is dead and on his grave are crushed a dozen dead flowers……..

Seriousness is the only refuge of the shallow. –Oscar Wilde