you know, you think you’re gonna have a good day with no interruptions… “everywhere i look you’re all i see, just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be” and i’m getting sick of it, it’s disgusting. you’re like the annoying kid that would sit near me in class, the one i’d be too nice to ignore, i’d talk just because i’m too nice…and then i’d have to see their face all the fucking time. that’s you. you’re that annoying fucking nerdy kid that just doesn’t know any better…thinking that you’re much cooler than you really are, thinking that people are truly your friends….when in reality…you’re still a fucking nobody…and i did you a FAVOR by showing the things i did. we get what we fucking deserve…and i never fucking deserved you, so keep all that you can get, and i’ll find the better things that i DO deserve.

is it raining is it snowing……

the beast is increasing in size…adding fat…growing…

getting a little erratic here and i don't know who to trust i guess they got a way of reading my mind i guess i gotta adjust i got my arms that flip-flop-flip-flop-flip i got my head on a spring well i thought i got you on my side i haven't got fucking anything i'm just a face in the crowd nothing to worry about not even trying to stand out i'm getting smaller and smaller and smaller and i have nothing to say it's all been taken away i just behave and obey i'm afraid i am starting to fade away uh-huh i kind of see through the cracks when i press up on the wall i'm not looking to stand up real high i'd be happy to crawl i think i'm losing my grip but i can still make a fist you know i still got my one good arm that i can beat that i can beat myself up with i'm just a face in the crowd nothing to worry about not even trying to stand out i'm getting smaller and smaller and smaller and i have nothing to say it's all been taken away i just behave and obey i'm afraid i am starting to fade away and for what it is worth i really used to believe that maybe there's some great thing that we can achieve and now i can't tell the difference or know what to feel between what i've been trying so hard to see and what appears to be real fading away fading away fading away fading away my world is getting smaller every day (hey hey hey hey) and that's okay my world is getting smaller every day (hey hey hey hey) and that's okay my world is getting smaller every day (hey hey hey hey) and that's okay my world is getting smaller every day (hey hey hey hey) and that's okay 

Prepare yourself for an extended run of romance — and a passionate one, too. For the next 72 hours, you’ll be attracting far more than your fair share of admirers. Better figure out now what you’re going to do. — hah! ok, who wants to fux??

http://www.gamespot.com/news/2005/06/29/news_6128319.html?tag=lastword_pc_headline

Being there for other people when they need you — no matter how inconvenient that happens to be — means certain intangible benefits will be bestowed upon you. First off, you get the good feelings that go along with helping someone for absolutely no personal gain. It’s also nice to know that others trust you enough to ask — kind of makes you feel good about just being you. Well, a coworker is about to say thank you — another perk, but one you’d never even considered. — didnt i just say that i keep putting everyone else before me?

ok i know i had wild dreams last night and i cant remember much of them, but i do remember shallowtubby being in it, she was a total bitch like, the whole dream…i don’t even know why was talking to her really, but i was in a house that some dude lived in, and she ended up showing up too and i was leaving but she stayed…so i just waited in the other room to see what happens. so, i come back a minute later…and she’s going down on this dude. i guess even in a dream i don’t give her much credit.