(phone call–answering machine picks up at man’s house) “hi, its me. i just wanted to call and say hi, it’s me, and to see how you were.” (man moaning upset in the background while listening to message) “i know it must have hard for you to bump into us like that, especially now that you’re a cripple. i just want you to know, well, it’s hard for me too” (man in back with wooman leaving message saying “honey get back here, i wanna fuck you”) (other man sobbingly moaning) “anyway, i wanted to give you some great news! it looks like me and Blowtart are gonna get married! i know it seems kinda sudden, seeing as how i just dumped you last week.” (sobbing man screaming “no!” and weeping) “and i just wanted to say that we could, you know, see each other, you know at some point. byee!” (woman hangs up phone but it doesn’t disconnect, message keeps recording. man at woman’s house screams to girl to “check out his hard on” and come to bed…girl begins moaning and having sex with Blowtart while sobbing man is listening to the message) (man continues weeping and groaning) that’s great, really great news and i’m so happy, so happy for you and im so glad life treats you just like it should, and i’m so glad you’re getting your BELL RUNG SO GOOD i’m sooo happy to hear it…..

Quickie:
Emotions may get the better of you. Focus on what you can control and move on.

Overview:
It was potent, and it was tricky to handle, but it was fun — that way you had of hypnotizing anyone and everyone who crossed your path over the past couple of days. Know what, though? It hasn’t gone anywhere. Careful! You’ve been wondering exactly what’s going on with you lately, haven’t you? Well, don’t poke at it too much. Just consider it the heavenly equivalent of winning the lottery and enjoy it. You can talk with literally anyone about literally anything now, and make it look easy. That goes double for your communication with coworkers — especially the ones you’re interested in for more than their memos.

i feel the love, homie, even if it’s hate in your mouth.

i have even more info to process now, i don’t really know what i truly think about it…that and now it makes me reevaluate everything else that has gone on around me…am i going to miss an opportunity? or was i even meant to have that opportunity? playing with fate makes things SO difficult to understand…should i make it happen or should i let it happen…should i dwell on it and open myself to the possibility……my head is a swirling blue mess right now. and then the OTHER one keeps invading my dreams again…and that part i’m not understanding. as much distaste as i hold for another human being i shouldn’t dream about them persistently. well, unless something has gone unsaid that i need to fucking finish. jeez maybe i just need to read more…or maybe i should just speak my mind like i’ve wanted to so badly…i just dont see it making any difference or making anything better. even feeling neglected at least i felt something…the way it is now i’m not allowed to feel ANYTHING…i can’t see which is worse…that and the issue is directly in front of my eyes and i can’t step myself far enough away from it to be an observer… my thoughts are tangled with the transgressions of so many others…you have your fingers inside my thoughts and dream, you have your eyes peering into my heart…your smiles still infect my precious soul….. DO something…someone…please…something…show me a fucking sign or a glimpse of the path…something new or something different…i’m not worth this damage and disbelief…

in the shadow of the valley of death….slit our wrists and send us to heaven….the first flower after the flood….

fat bitches are hard to kidnap.