so thus begins my disappearance. kris, you are first on my list to speak to and make amends. i’ve pushed you away because of my naivety, i’ve pushed you away because you wanted me to believe you, and i chose not to. i know i should have heeded your words at the time. i’m also egotistical. i believe everyone loves me. hate to say this, the witch was the first to call me egotistical and pompous. and to second that, the stripper was the next to call me a condescending asshole. words that surely ring true, and words that i allow to ring true. its funny how one minute someone will tell you to think better of yourself, and that you shouldn’t be so insecure, and the moment you believe yourself to be something better, you become an arrogant prick. so by saying i beieve in myself, i believe i am more of an offering than most should choose to take, that makes me arrogant. well, so be it. most of you aren’t ready. i hereby fold my wings back once more and become that which i am most comfortable with, myself.