words cant express how you make me feel..the way you said the simplest things… i wanted tos ee you i wanted to come to yourhouse tonight i wish i could have come over….. i think about you too much…. i miss you…. you dont know how itmakes me feel…and i cant express (i know i said it alreayd) how that makes me see yo9u…. you’re beautiful for all that you are, for all your frailty, for all your faults, for all your misgivings and misunderstandings…you are the one thing that i’ve felt in a long tme….i only wish you to see my heart for what it truly means….the thints i want to show you, the things i wish you could see… you are a creature that i havent seen the likes of in a long time…you are something that MEANS something to me… a creature i didnt know i would find again… i’m desperately …….in ……. love with you. you know this already, as i know…..and i know you feel something too….. and it scares you…ity frightents you beyond belief to think that somethintg like me would find you, you never wanted to see a thing like me as something you could get clo9se to, as something you could fall for….as ssomething that could be the being that you want to be with….i’m never the thing that people dream about, i’m never thjething that people desire….i confuse you to no end….you cant under4rstand why you would be attracted to ME….and yet, i dont understand why i could be so affixed to a thing like you…in my eyes you’re all that i’d be afraid of, all that i’d run from…and yet you captivate me to no end, the way you are…the things you possess….your spirit is pure and loving and i can only dream tha tyou’d believe me…. i see what you are, and i want to be closer….no matter what the cost….it may cause me pain and angu9ish beyond what i want…you may vcause me damage and you may hurt what i wish myself to become…but i cant fight what my heart is telling me…you are the one thing that i desire., and my heart wont deny me th8is….you wont be replaced. you know what i am, you know what i offer you…you even know the things that others dont, you understand me for what i show you and what i offer…adn yet you havent turned your back on me…. and i wont turn my back oin you…. do the thigns you see as important for now, i will be waiting….i cant wait forever for you to see me as what i hide so well from others, but you have your time….no one else has deemed worthy of my time….make your decisions and live your life as you need….i’ll take the backseat as long as my hgeart allows…but i cant promise it will be forever…. it will only be as long as it needs before i break and revert to what i have tried so desperately to be… i want to be cold and distant…i want to be strong and secure….i want to believe that i dont need comfort and love in my life…but you keep showing me otherwise and it pains me to know that i can love you the way that i’ve only dreamt possible… your journey doesnt have to continue if you close your eyes and start looking with uyour soul… bless you for telling me you miss me, bless you for telling mne you wish you could spend thyis night with me….bless you for what you are and the thigns you dont understand…. i’m still watching you and my arms are still open… i’ll have my chance to have you again, i’ll have the time to touch your soul and allow you to see the things you only think about….i’m real, and i’m standing right outside your grasp…but only for now. your grasp and your fingertips can touch me as soon as you alllow it. i want to feel your hot breath next to my skin…i want to breathe you in and allow my senses to become drunk in your essence…i want to taste your skin against my lips, your warm body cuddled against mine in security and comfort….i want to gaze in your eyes for eternity and have you understand that all things become lost when we stare at each other… those are thei things i’m afraid to see when i stare into your eys…this is why you scare me, this is why i’m afraid….i knew you the first time i saw you, i looked atyour face and your piercing eyes…i let myself dance in your gaze and believed that one day i might have my chance… you made my heart soar and play when you said you wanted to be with me tonight, you made me surge when you said you wished you had the chance to come over….i can imagine my hands holding yours…my eyes lockign with yours….my lips touching yours in such a dangerous and powerful embrace…. the time isn’t yet, it will come soon…when the stars deem it right, i’ll show you the things that you never thougth possible….all you have to do is believe that i am real…that i am standingt in front of you…all uyou have to do is hold out your loving hand… thank you for telling me how much you missed me and how much you think of me…you don’t know how strong those simple words really are…. i’m not the same flesh and blood you think i am…and neither are you…