and here we are.

i want unabashed truth…and i can’t make my fingers type the words.

i’ve slipped further from people lately than i ever have in my life…but does it feel good? i’ve had less stress. i’ve had fun not worrying about people. i’ve had fun being free from my emotions.

but to what end?

it just feels like i’m hiding from myself, and i guess in a way i am. i want to scream about my adoration, but i’m sick of my words falling on deaf ears.

and yes, actions speak MUCH louder than words. tell me you love me, tell me that you miss me…but if you continue to show me the opposite time and time again…why am i supposed to believe it?

how fitting…the new NIN…the words being repeated right now…”i don’t feel anything…i don’t feel anything at all…i feel a million miles away”

i will always be there for those who reach their hands, but i’ve been so drained and i have nothing left to give. and now i’m left waiting for someone to charge me again. i need something that no one is giving, and i don’t know where to turn.

love is turning to cynicism…and i don’t want that. i don’t want bitterness. i want to smile when i get texts or when i hear from someone, and right now i just don’t.
next weekend will mark a year for a beautiful night and a beautiful event…the culmination of dreams and anticipation…those lips i dared to taste. everything changed in that one instant…and they’ve never been the same.

tell me why the fuck someone can have such an impact on my life and my heart?

“once i start i cannot help myself…”

bat your eyelashes and tell me everything is going to be ok.

——-
Morgan Blackdragon
Sorry we missed you the other night at Assimilation. We haven’t been doing anything in that “scene” for a while now. Too much drama. We’re avoiding the messes and spending less money so it’s all good. Only bad thing is not seeing much of our friends on that side… We’ll get back out soon or do something. We want to do a BBQ or something at our place this summer.
Reply3 years ago

She B
as far as the friend thing you KNOW I have been thinking/feeling the same. Im tired of me doing the calling/inviting. but you know I hardly care anymore, Im having a good life
Reply(1)3 years ago

She B
i wasnt pointing the finger at u, just agreeing babe!
3 years ago

Xx*FemCore*xX
Maybe you should try returning e mail or text banana…..
I love you, i miss you, i miss your voice
Xo~LasheS~xO
Reply3 years ago

Xx*FemCore*xX
Maybe you should try returning e mail or text banana…..
I love you, i miss you, i miss your voice
Xo~LasheS~xO
Reply3 years ago