Iniquity of Flitzanu

have i lost my voice? “…replay the part, you stole my heart, i should have known you’re crazy…”    “so bittersweet this tragedy, won’t ask for absolution..  this melody, inside of me, still searches for solution… a twist of fate, a change of heart, kills my infatuation… a broken heart, to hide the spark, for my […]

i’ll build you, i’ll destroy you, i’ll placate you, i’ll annoy you. i’ll fuck you, i’ll sate you, i’ll love you, i’ll hate you. i’ll build you, i’ll break you, i’ll give you, i’ll take you. i’ll be who you want, i’ll be who you don’t, i’ll be all those things that the other guys […]

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i think i’m slowly realizing that i’ve lost my one constant in my life.  the one who really “got” me.  the one that knows me so much better than myself.  i look in the mirror, and i’m mostly there, but something is just missing.  it’s been too long to keep looking back, and a big […]

It’s so funny how things suddenly lose perspective…when you think things are falling into place, something will come along and throw you off course… I thought I had things under control, and now I feel I’m spiraling again, seeing things in all new light, and it scares me.  It’s so damn hard for people to […]

happy birthday, dear shehag, you’re older and wiser, and even further away this year.  may the stars continue to shine brightly on your soul.

some things are so inescapable…and maybe i’ve been pretending that they don’t bother me.  i’m a sucker for finding punishment in all that i do.  i made the mistake of finding a lot of old chat logs on my computer, and now i wonder if i should have even read them.  i feel empty, desolate, […]

happy bday, baby briana…..

i watched Garden State again (it has natalie portman in it!) and just…wanted to cry.  the amazing beauty of meeting someone who is a total stranger, finding them to complement you so well, falling purely in love and then… would you walk away?  COULD you walk away?  i didn’t realize it the first time i […]